stars_andscars

heh...isn't that the truth?

Tue, 27 Dec 2005 22:24:42 GMT

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Sat, 03 Dec 2005 07:28:27 GMT

hmm...

WOW.

Long time no type. It's been awhile. I don't even know where to begin. Things are rough right now. Very rough. I got arrested again, i have to go to WCS once a week, i'm trying to stay clean and my head is fucked up. Very fucked up.

My family life is getting a little better. I understand why it's taking a long time though. I really hurt my family. REALLY hurt my family. Over and over again i lied, and stole, and left without and trace and now i have to earn their trust back.
The only time i really leave my house is when i go to NA meetings. They're corny as shit, but i like the people. I met this guy named jim. He used to work at the rave and he knows jack. I like him a lot and i think he's a really cool guy. He gave me his nimber and i gave him mine and he said he might call sometime this weekend. I hope he does.

James get out of jail next friday. I doubt he'll call me, and i doubt that i'll see him for at least another month. We've been writing to eachother. He flat out told me that we can't be together and he also said that he can't be there for me like he should. He said that shows weakness, but he is weak right now. Part of me understands. The other part of me is pissed off. I'm pissed off because: i am here for him. I will always be here for him no matter what. Always. Whether his parents hate me, or his girlfrinds or ex-girlfriends hate me, or whatever...if he calls and needs me i would drop whatever i was doing to see him or talk to him. I would not and will NOT pick up for him, but i would do whatever i could to help him. This isn't going to change. He is weak, and he can't be there for me, and i am weak, but i will always be there for him. And i hope he knows that.

you gots ta dance fo me......

Tue, 06 Sep 2005 19:01:36 GMT

hmm....

shit sucks.

I HATE waiting!!!!! BRIAN,what is taking you so damn long? Maybe they aren't comming... then i would have to kill someone.

Sooo...how have i been doing? ok. kind of strange. I talked to nyki last night and she told me that james doesn't want to talk to me until he gets out... that makes me really sad. I don't think he'll want to be with me. But we all knew that was comming, didn't we? he has no more chances and i'm not the one thats going to be the reason he goes to prison... even though i kinda was this time. oh well. fuckin' shit.

where the fuck ARE THEY!!!???

damn damn damn.

jerry is out of jail, and he wants to be with me...riiiiiight. And i got sam calling me every 2 damn seconds trying to talk to his lost love. Fuck that kid. he's a peice of shit and i don't care who tells him that i said that.

hmm.... well, i have to pee...

c-ya
LyNzy